★ Saturday, March 28, 2009 ★ @ 12:45 AM
Would you be there.?
48days to go.
just finish watching 溏心风暴. a very romantic & touching love story. so touched that i watched till cried. hmm. not bad nahs. nothing much to blog about. wasn't feeling very well the whole day. been sad, been crying for the day. many things happened. even it wasn't really very serious, but to me, i think still the same.
if one day, i were to die before my love ones. im wondering, am i being selfish or not? but still, i wished that my love ones will be happy. & dont be sad for me. losing the love ones de feelings wasn't very good, but i hope, they will still be happy, even without me.
hmm. 1 month, 18days to go. or maybe earlier, i don't know either. baby quinnabel's arrival is coming nearer & nearer. hhaas. i feel so happy with her in me. she's been kicking & moving alot. mummy says that she will be a very cheeky girl. hhaas. just like now, baby quinnabel knows that im blogging about her, so she's kicking me hard again. hhaas. naughty her. but no matter what, i love her lots. (:
PS. baby quinnabel is my everything. i love her.
& now, his enjoying his MJ games, & im alone, nothing to do, cant sleep either. haiis. so sad.
hope mummy's feeling is much better now.
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8months 1week of pregnancy. time flies. ever since the day i know that im pregnant, till now, the days counting down day by day, the happy & sad times i have & gone through, the tears i cried, the scar i got from, from a little blood clot & now becoming the little one inside my tummy, sharing my happiness & sorrows with me, is my little xiao bu dian, baby quinnabel. i've learnt & gone through many things, from a happy relationship to a broken relationship, from a single status almost becoming a married status, & now, im still on the single status. even its not important or a throw face matter, im still facing the fact that im a single mummy-to-be. & this whole pregnancy, shows me who really cares & loves me. i thank god that i have them. especially, my mummy. she's the greatest of all. & now, im going to be like her, gonna be a mummy soon. i need to teach & guide my girl all alone. mummy is the greatest role in life which i need to learn to be like her. so strong, & she never give up on me at all. even if i did hurt her sometimes. she keeps hang onto me, guiding me through, without complaining or regretting of giving birth to me. because she loves me. just like the way i love baby quinnabel too. i want to be like her, being a great mummy to baby quinnabel, even if its hard, i wont give up. because is my choice of choosing this path, & i need to overcome everything myself. its not anybodys' fault. its my choice, its god's will. i hope, & wished, baby quinnabel will be healthy & im glad with anything. i didnt blame her for taking away all my freedoms. i love her still, even her daddy have let me down, proving me wrong. im sure baby quinnabel will understand & stand to be the right ones. remembering, during the first trimster, i did have alittle thought of giving her up, because i thought her appears have hurt my relationship. but after a long cry, i realise, i cant blame her at all. she's the most innocent of all in this journey of mine. so until now, i didnt give up on her at all. & i hoped, she will be loved. & be the happiest girl in life. because im now playing the role of a father & a mother. she's my everything. & she meant alot to me too. i just cant wait to see her. sometimes really hopes she'll arrives earlier. because i wanna to talk to her, touch her little limps, kiss her forehead & saying this to her : Mummy loves you. i wont give up, because im still waiting. & i hope, Oldman will love her like i do. because he promise to walk down the path with me. & his telling me that we are holding on strongly, waiting the day to come, & he's so willing to be my little angel's daddy-to-be. i know its hard on him, but his trying his best to prove to me everything. & i trust him, okays. encounting the days together. thank god for everything. im happy & statisfied.
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