I'm not afraid to keep on living, & im not afraid to walk this road alone. But i'm afraid that not seeing you anymore. We might consider as nothing anymore. But still, i misses you every seconds & every minutes. Its hard for me to let go, but stil we choose to. Like you said. You maybe don't need me anymore. But still, you know how much i need you still? Your smiles, your laughter, your hugs & your kisses is within me every minutes. The words you said to me. Promise me not to leave me alone again, & you did it one more time. I was wondering whether are we really fated to be making fun of by god? Or is it we still don't understand each other well. When i miss you, i cried alone in my room. Looking at the toys & photos we used to share. I still cant forget the way you told me how much you love me. I still cant forget the day you & i said we've given up. How i hope time may turn back now & i will stop everything. I will choose not to be so harshed. I will listens to your everything too. & sort things out properly.

Princess & i feel so lonely without your days. Your cares & loves. We missed it badly. I may look strong in the previous few post. But seriously. You know how much i missed & loved you? In total of 2yrs we've known each other. The love we used to have, the days we used to shared, the happiness we had, the quarrels we had, is still deep down inside my heart clearly. If im god, i will choose it to be as blur as anything. Because thinking & missing only hurts me deeper. You know me well. I told you once. How much i have put into this relationships & everything. I cant bear to lose you, even if i had to now. I'm still enduring my tears, my mindset. I simply cant accept the fact that you're gone. Gone to someone else side. When i need your love & care the most, you left me alone here. Trying to be strong, i force myself to eat, to sleep & to play without you controlling me now, but still, i failed.

& now, finally, i might be failure to this relationship, but at least that's something i know. I love you truely & seriously. Our hopes & dreams might be smashed now. But still, how i hope everything is back to square. I don't wished to feel so hurt like now. I don't want princess to be sad. But still, we know all about losing you now. You're not here anymore. Not even concerning about us anymore. I always told everyone & hear from my friends about how wonderful you can be my princess's good daddy. But now, i'm left alone here by you to be the role of both a mother & a father. Princess had me left only. Yes, she might needs me alot more than anything. But, do you know how much i need you right now more than anything? I know i'm just being stupid. Holding on to a love that doesn't belong to me anymore. But, do you really know how deep & how serious is my love for you till now?

I saw many single mummies. I wished i can be like them. Put down the broken relationship & continues with life. But, i'm still not so strong yet. I'm not born to be strong. I know you must be very hate me now. Because of me & princess, a burden to your life. But do you know something? To me, princess is a fated gift from god, just for you & me. God wanted us to hold on to each other to overcome all obstacles. But now, you still choose to let go of me half way. Will you come back to me one fine day? I know its impossible, i'm trying very very hard to let go. Again, its really very hard. Everything in my life seems so uncolour. I wished i can turn back time. I wished to go back to the last two weeks we had together. The days we share together, we spent our time & everything.

I'm trying my best. My very best to forget the past & start anew. But its really hard. Because not everyone is born to be strong. Not everyone can forgives & forgets one thing so fast. I'm the weakest of all. I hope & wished you will be here, reading my heart of words. Its truely from my heart & mind. & i really cant accept the fact till now. I don't mind you are poor or playful or anything. I just love the way you are. My days without you now, is really very lonely & hurt. I missed you so much. & i swear its alot alot alot more than i missed princess. I'm really trying very very hard to be like you now, forgetting our everything. But seriously, i don't think i can be like you. I'm sorry, i love you so much.

If only you will be back by my side now. I'm happy than anything. Even happier than winning lottery. Seriously, i miss you.

花接受凋零
风接受追寻
心的伤还有一些不要紧
我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的
一半苦的像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的
总是未完成的我只能唱着一半的歌

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的
一半苦的像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的
总是未完成的我只能唱着一半的歌

我的明天快不快乐都是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可
可最最教人残念的
总是未完成的另一半的歌

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promise to take good care of her.

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Is a promise to my life to take care of.
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Precii0us, ILOVEYOU

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DOB : 24th April 2009
Birth Weight : 2.91kg
Birth length : 48cmm
Head Circumference : 33cm
Gestation period : 37 Weeks
Natural Birth with Epidural
Place of Birth : KKH


*First Month Check Up*
*27052009*
Weight : 3.92kg
Length : 52.5cm
Head Circumference : 36.5cm

*Third Month Check Up*
*24072009*
Weight : 6.262kg
Length : 58cm
Head Circumference : 40.4cm



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