ii really dunn0 t0 let g0 or t0 h0ld on f0rr n0w . im t0tally blank . ii haf been enduriin the paiins , the hurts , yet he stil dunn0 hiish hurtiin me deep . frens haf been askiin me t0 b str0ng . yahs . ii oso wiish ii can b dat str0ng . buhh stil , ii cant . co0sh , my tears repeatedly fl0w dwn frm my eyes evey niights .

my aunt t0ld me tiis . t0 herr n0w , inside the dicti0nary , ther wasnt any LOVE in herr . bco0sh she haf seen thru every r/s . even if the guy ish a very MR NICE GUY , buhh say change jiu change , with0ut any warnin , afte marriage , he can leave the family & g0 appr0ach t0 hiish career & dreams . & she ended it with , she onii can tell me dat Woman re all fated t0 b hurt by guys .

tiis sms w0ke my feelins up abiit . she's right . guys can b very sweet & l0viin n0w , & e stil can cho0se t0 let g0 anytyme . even if dey re marriied . its the same way & st0riies happenin in me . n0w wad ii lack ob , iish my Yong Qi . if ii cho0se t0 let g0 , ii haf t0 . bco0sh n0 matter h0w tight ii h0ld on , he wil stil leave me s0meday . lets n0rt say he w0nt leave me n0w , buhh s0meh0w , if we carriies on wit nv endin quarrels , s0meday , we wil oso b tired & cho0se t0 let g0 other tyme .

ii haf fall dwn in r/s s0 many tymes . ii managed t0 stand up with0ut lo0kin backiie . why cant ii jus stand up tiis last tyme & lo0k 4ward ? bco0sh ii l0vee hiimh to0 much . our lil priincess ish the p0wer f0rr me t0 h0ld on til n0w . im to0 weak . ii cant 4get hiimh . even he treats me badly smtymes . im owas s0ft hearte . & ii cant change tiis habit away . t0 hiimh , t0 tiis r/s , ii really put in al0t , ii really gave up many tings co0sh ob hiimh . jus wante hiimh t0 understand me m0re , the attitude 2wards me n0rt owas h0t & c0ld oso hard mahs ? cant he owas b dat l0viin & sweet .? or ish it true dat , dat's was a limit f0r h0neymo0n peri0d ?

ish it tyme f0rr me t0 leave ? leave tiis sadness & hurtful w0rld . ii feel like g0iin t0 smwher smtyme . far far away frm here . mayb it wil b easier f0rr me t0 4get . buhh can ii really mak it ?

ii cant kn0w & understand my feelins n0w . typiin my daily r0untine feelins , tears teariin off my cheek again . im n0rt a crybaby n0rr a weak iris . buhh n0w , it seems dat im very xiin ku t0 cho0se . ii wann hiimh t0 l0vee me like he used t0 . & the pr0mise he made t0 me . pr0mises frm hiimh ish very impt t0 me . even he br0ke sm ob it . buhh im stil willin t0 wait f0rr hiish pr0mise t0 b d0ne . mayb im to0 dumb , mab ii l0vee hiimh s0 much . s0 n0 matter h0w hurt he did tiings t0 me , ii wil owas 4giib & 4get . can ii b str0ng again .? wil we haf our l0vely future .? can we nj0y our lil family lyfe tgt til old ? its all ii h0piin f0rr .

PS. ii wann n0thiin n0w , jus wann hiimh t0 kn0w my feelins right n0w . h0w hurt am ii & h0w much ii need hiimh t0 h0ld me up . wil he b ther again.?

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Birth Weight : 2.91kg
Birth length : 48cmm
Head Circumference : 33cm
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*27052009*
Weight : 3.92kg
Length : 52.5cm
Head Circumference : 36.5cm

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*24072009*
Weight : 6.262kg
Length : 58cm
Head Circumference : 40.4cm



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